When the Forest is on Fire

Last year, I wrote an article for Trail Sisters about how to properly respond to and care your lungs during Fire Season.  Click here for the full article.

 

 Hazy days in the Gorge.  You should normally be able to see Wy'east (Mt. Hood) clearly from this vantage point.

Hazy days in the Gorge.  You should normally be able to see Wy'east (Mt. Hood) clearly from this vantage point.

 Hazy Sunrise

Hazy Sunrise

Amanda Roe
Timberline Trail
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What is all of it for?

The training.  The running.  The stretching.  The eating.

It's for days like Saturday.  When I turned 30, I was pregnant and while that was an amazing feat, I knew that turning 40 would stir up the desire to go big or go home.  I know myself.

Last fall, I messaged a few runners and coaches in my area with some ideas about a 40-mile run for my 40th birthday.  It was on a Saturday, after all!  The idea of doing a circumnavigation around Wy'east (Mt. Hood) came up, but my birthday is too early in the season for the rivers and glaciers to be safe for passage.

 It was a great day to turn 40!

It was a great day to turn 40!

I ran a few races in late winter/early spring and something in me just shut off and shut down.  I had ZERO desire to try and go 40 miles.  30 miles seemed long enough.  I decided (that's the key word) that I didn't want to be a cliche, running 40 miles for 40 years.  I decided to be funny and run a local trail called the "4-T" (see what I did there?).

 

In a parallel running universe (that frequently overlaps with mine) another friend had reserved a condo at the base of Wy'east for mid-July.  She planned to complete the circumnavigation for her 40th birthday.  She extended an invitation.  Spoiler alert: I accepted. 

What came next is the unexpected gift of jumping into something beyond perceived capabilities.  What came next is the expansion of core beliefs. 

In the last couple of weeks leading up to our big adventure, I would see Wy'east (aka Mt. Hood, but I find myself drawn to using the pre-contact names for natural landmarks whenever possible), from Portland, and it would look bigger and bigger every day.  I juggled thoughts of doubt and belief equally.  I mean, who runs around an entire mountain in a day?  

The answer to that is: more people than you think, and I certainly know a lot of them---so when 9 other women showed up the night before to prep for the big day, my confidence came into view again.  I decided to have fun.

 

The biggest thing I have learned this year is how much power we have to decide for ourselves whether or not something will be hard.  Will we quit or will we keep going?  Will we even start? 

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Well, we definitely started.  I, along with 9 other women, hit the Timberline trail at 5:25am, just as the sun was coming up, knowing full-well that the sun would be setting as we made our way back to our starting point.

The incredible thing about doing the circumnavigation is that there are views pretty much ALL THE TIME.  We had to keep ourselves moving/not take too many photos.  We also had to keep in mind the many river crossings that would be rising as the sun melted the glaciers during the day.

The first few were not too big of a deal.  Once we got into the afternoon melt, it was a different story altogether.  The trail conditions were primo, soft, reasonable blow-down (fallen trees, etc..).  The rivers swelled and raged, and made me REALLY glad I had been doing a lot of cross-training.  Forget about wading or running.  Crossing the rivers required leaping from boulder-to-boulder (on tired legs)

 After a river crossing, one of the few flat parts of the trail!

After a river crossing, one of the few flat parts of the trail!

After one of the more challenging (dangerous) crossings, we had the biggest climb of the day between Miles 24-30, up to Lamberson Ridge.  From up there, I felt I could see all of Oregon!  We had already been out for 11 hours, and I knew we still had actual glaciers to cross, so again, not so many pictures, just lots of digging deep and moving forward.  At altitude.

The glaciers were actually quite a relief, nice cool snow, and luckily, really easy to traverse the day we did it.  I guess easy after 12 hours of trail running becomes a relative term, but let's just say I was dreading them a bit, and I did not need to spend any mental energy dreading them once it came to crossing them. I have heard many other worse stories.  For us, the rivers were BY FAR the hardest.  The glaciers seemed like a cake walk.

   What is that written on her legs?   Well, it isn't the directions for the run! One special thing I have done since 2006 is Mile Dedications.  People in my life have the chance to sign up for a mile of meditation, prayer, kind thoughts, memorial, etc.. by me during that mile.  It breaths life into me when I know who I'm running for.  I ask each person to pay forward a token of kindness during my run, because we need all the love and beauty and kindness we can get in this life.

What is that written on her legs? Well, it isn't the directions for the run! One special thing I have done since 2006 is Mile Dedications.  People in my life have the chance to sign up for a mile of meditation, prayer, kind thoughts, memorial, etc.. by me during that mile.  It breaths life into me when I know who I'm running for.  I ask each person to pay forward a token of kindness during my run, because we need all the love and beauty and kindness we can get in this life.

 Looking north to Pahto (Mt. Adams)

Looking north to Pahto (Mt. Adams)

 The Dollar Lake burn area, already starting to bounce back from the Eagle Creek Fire of 2017.  This was one of my favorite parts, watching nature renew amidst devastation.  Resilience in action.

The Dollar Lake burn area, already starting to bounce back from the Eagle Creek Fire of 2017.  This was one of my favorite parts, watching nature renew amidst devastation.  Resilience in action.

At what was meant to be our second to last major river crossing, I managed to emerge from the forest into the river canyon with a hilarious tumble down the lava rocks.  I felt grateful at least a few people got to see that.  I had only fallen one other time all day, so I was glad to have made it 33 miles with so few injuries.  The crossing was the most challenging of the day (of course).  We all made it across.  It was another boulder-leaping ninja warrior deal.  We were all ready to be done.  All of our maps said the trail was 40 miles.  The more we talked to hikers coming from the other direction, the more we realized that it was closer to 42 miles.

We made it all the way to mile 38 (2 more miles? 4 more miles?) when we made our first, last, and only wrong turn of the day.  Someone had posted a sign "TO LODGE" at a junction, which we took to mean Timberline Lodge, where we were headed.  We took the junction to the left and headed downhill towards what we assumed was out last river crossing of the day, White River, which of course has not one, but two separate branches to cross.  We noticed that we were heading away from the mountain, and not toward it, not toward water at all.  Backtracking, and hiking uphill, we found the juncture again, and proceeded on the trail, at this point realizing we'd be finishing after sunset.  

The light faded quickly, the headlamps came on, and we finally reached the White River Canyon.  Assessing a river's depth and turbulence in the dark is not something I am particularly skilled at, so we took this one realllllll slow.  It is 2 miles up a "vertical beach" of lava silt and sand to reach Timberline from this point.  It took close to an hour.  It took courage and strength I wasn't sure I had.  When 16 hours on the trail turned into 17 hours on the trail, I had all kinds of mixed feelings.  The night sky was to die for.  Everything hurt.  The lodge kept flickering in and out of view.  There was peace, even in these painful, exhausted moments.  Finally, finally, the sound of the Salmon River headwaters, meaning the climbing was done, and it was a short walk down to the parking lot. 

43.4 miles. 10,000+ ft of elevation gain. 17hours and 10 minutes. 

Some people want stuff for their birthday.  I pretty much just want to see what I'm made of.  I want to see what nature is made of.

Strip it down to one foot in front of the other, sending kindness out into the universe.  

 

Amanda Roe
Wild Woman Trail Marathon and Relay

Ahhhhhhh, year SIX of the Wild Woman Trail Marathon and Relay (and 50K).  This was an ON year for me.  That puts me at 4 good years with this race and 2 not so good years.  I shaved 39 minutes off last year's race (an "OFF" year) and 15 minutes off my fastest time for the course so far. 

Beyond the actual race, I simply love going to the event every year.  I get to meet up with runner friends from Idaho, Washington, and Oregon....and every year there are runners from far-flung places that show up.  It's a great event.  So great that I'm stoked to announce I'll be sponsoring a team of high schoolers to run next year! 

Pic by Launa Gray: Cooling off in the stream-fed horse troughs at the finish line.  Mission Accomplished!

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Night time meanderings

Even in your neighborhood, slow down, find the beauty cultivated within your direct radius.  All of these incredible flowers were found on a walk less than a mile from my home.  To the beauty creators and cultivators, thank you.  It is crucial to reset by looking at nature and appreciating the small things.

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You Start Dying Slowly
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Bear with me, this is a message of hope.

Birthdays roll around once a year.  How do you feel on your birthday?  This poem, by Pablo Neruda is close to the thoughts I have.

You start dying slowly...

if you do not travel,

if you do not read,

If you do not listen to the sounds of life,

If you do not appreciate yourself.

 

You start dying slowly...

When you kill your self-esteem;

When you do not let others help you.

 

You start dying slowly...

If you become a slave of your habits,

Walking everyday on the same paths…

If you do not change your routine,

If you do not wear different colors

Or you do not speak to those you don’t know.

 

You start dying slowly...

If you avoid to feel passion

And their turbulent emotions;

Those which make your eyes glisten

And your heart beat fast.

 

You start dying slowly...

If you do not change your life when you are not satisfied with your job, or with your love,

If you do not risk what is safe for the uncertain,

If you do not go after a dream,

If you do not allow yourself,

At least once in your lifetime,

To run away from sensible advice…

 

~~ BY: Pablo Neruda, Spanish poet who won Nobel Prize for Literature in 1971

Endure
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I have been reading the book "Endure" by Alex Hutchinson over the past few weeks, and today was the day I put into practice what I learned.  I challenged myself to hike Dog Mountain before work today, and I knew it would be tight.  I'd have to keep moving up the 3000ft elevation gain over 3.8 miles up the side of that mountain. One of the big take home lessons that I gained was "actual" vs "perceived" exertion.  This chart really stuck with me.  The decision to stop. The decision. To stop.  So all morning I practiced deciding to continue and push myself.  It felt kind of magical.  There were moments of "what the heck?", but there were more moments of, "Look at me go!"  I must've asked myself about 50 times if I was actually needing to slow down or if I was deciding to slow down.  

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One of the final, glorious pushes to the top!

Patience while things grow

I am exercising a lot of patience while continually planting the seeds of Nature Intervenes.  Last week, I met with a graphic designer to help me create the logo that will eventually represent the ideals and elements of these seeds.  It. Takes. Time.

 

And I am not so good at waiting when it comes to this particular project.

 

I wore this shirt on my morning trail run, and came home to find my husband readying the ground to plant my “sapling” from the 2014 Portland Marathon.  It was a good reminder that growth takes time, perseverance, and bit of love doesn’t hurt!  I love welcoming this cedar into the garden today.  She smells amazing, and I know I’ll remember to breathe and be patient each time I see her.

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Amanda Roe
Just a little touch.....

Hi my people!  I'm just back from New Zealand and have been bathed in a sea of green plants and an ocean of blue waters.  So lovely.  I read a TON about the effects of nature on our human bodies while I was there, and I wanted to leave a sweet little study here for you to read.  Tell me you're not going to go get a houseplant after that (at minimum) or at least make a pledge to get yourself in nature once a week (twice? three times?).  

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